Tuesday, January 8, 2013

NEWNESS

 
There is a lot of "NEW" going on this New Year for our family. The last 17 days have been a roller coaster of an emotions since we found out about Misa's job being transferred to Conway, Arkansas. Allie is REALLY excited (she is Misa's kid...LOVES change and new adventures). I think Chloe is coming to a place of acceptance but is not happy about it. I am excited for a new chapter but I am finding it hard to leave the place that has been more than Home for us at OC. I feel sad to leave the ministry TEAM at Celebrate Recovery and my "forever family" at both CR and Wilshire. I know that God has a plan for our family and that He is good. Just like life, these next 4 months will be a journey of "see you laters" and lots of "Thanks for loving us!" So with this new year we welcome new life, new things to remember, new environment, new beginnings, new endings, new hopes, and new blessings as we remember"
Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

2012 A year in review

We experienced a lot in 2012:
-I trained slow and steady and finished my first and 2nd 5k
-Buster joined our family
-Oscar turned 1.
-Chloe graduated level D in Kumon
-Allie turned 9
-Ava turned 2
-Misa built some flowerbeds and we did some landscaping outside.
-I turned 34.
-We began fertility treatments.
-I had 2 minor procedures to help with fertility.
-Allie went to camp for the first time.
-Chloe went for the 2nd time
-I went to camp as a counselor.
-Jake turned 9.
-Adley was born.
-We went on the youth camping trip.
-The girls went on a fun-filled Dallas vacation with Meme and Punkie
-We all went to Dallas for the 2nd annual "Bell Birthday Bash" and to meet Adley.
-Misa and I celebrated 4 years of marriage.
-I went to California for the Summit for the 2nd time.
-Chloe started 7th grade
-Allie started 4th grade
-Allie played soccer and basketball at school and basketball and volleyball at the YMCA.
-I began my 8th year working at OC.
-Chloe turned 13.
-I celebrated 4 years of recovery at CR.
-We had a great Thanksgiving with international Students
-Mema passed away.
-We found out we are moving to ARKANSAS!

God is good and I can't wait to see that 2013 has in store for our family.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Christmas 2012


Well, this Christmas season has been ones of ups and downs for us. It started off great with Christmas with my side of the family the weekend of the 15th. We ate our annual finger-foods meal and opened the gifts we got for each other and enjoyed watching the kids open their gifts!


We then all headed to Rhema to look at Christmas lights.

The next day we went to church together and then we ate lunch at Mazzios where our Uncle Ralph and Aunt Shirley met us.

We then headed home for the girls to finish up school and I could get ready for our big trip north to be with Misa's side of the family for Christmas. However, on Tuesday I got a call that Mema would only live a few hours more and then the call that she had passed from this life. My sister and I went down on Tuesday to be with my mom for a little while before we had to be back that afternoon. Wednesday, I put on Allie's Christmas party since I was the home room mom.

 We had a hot dog party, hot chocolate, and decorate-your-own-cookie station. As soon as the party was over we headed to Claremore for the viewing of the body. Thursday we had the funeral. Thursday night after we ate dinner with the family we headed back to OKC so that I could try to finish my mile long to-do-list. I was beyond exhausted and so I crawled in bed with the anticipation of a good night's sleep and not getting out of bed until I woke up. However on Friday morning about 8:00 a.m. misa called to say that HR was there when he got to work and that they informed him that they were closing the yard where he worked. They then offered him a manager position in Conway, Arkansas with a great moving package full of incentives.


He then had to layoff 28 out of the 35 people that work there. Needless to say it was beyond a rough day. We were supposed to leave that night when he got off work for Michigan but we were both feeling shocked so we decided to wait to leave until Sunday morning. After discussing it we decided that we would accept their offer and move to Arkansas. Misa would head there in January and the girls and I would follow when they finish school up for the year and I could finish up my job at Udining. We then went back and forth on when would be a good time to tell them. Should we wait until after Christmas? or Should we just tell them? I called my very dear friend, Amy, who gave me some advice (she is a military wife who has moved 14 times in her families army career). She told me to research what was in Arkansas and particularly around where we would live that would be fun to do and tell them when we see them so that is what we decided to do. We left OKC before the sun came up and I put on my headphones and listened to my peace playlist I had made and watched the sunrise as we headed down the turnpike. We picked up the girls and we told them about 10 minutes into our Michigan drive. They both cried and Chloe was just really angry. Allie now says she is excited about it and Chloe is still not happy about it. Allie has been studying the St.Louis Arch in school and has become very interested in in so we decided to stop and see it. She was soooo excited!

We took the ride to the top in the tiny tram car capsule where we could look at the very top of the arch at St.Louis. We then went down and the girls got some souvenirs at the store. We climbed back in the car and headed to our destination for the night in Indianapolis. We got there about 10:00 p.m. We got this hotel free with Misa's reward points and thought because it was a Radison it would be nice but it was pretty run down but we settled in for the night. I got up early to do payroll and email my Kumon bosses and let them know what was going on. We then headed to cracker barrel for breakfast and then we started on our short 5 hour ride to Lansing where we would meet our Michigan family for the Christmas Eve party for Papa Ron's side of the family. However about 10 minutes after our drive our car broke down. What a God thing, that we were only 10 minutes from the only dealership in Indianapolis. It was Christmas Eve and several so the dealership was closed. We decided we would leave our car there and rent a car to make the rest of the trip. We finally found that Enterprise was open but the only car they had was 1/2 the size of what we were driving. So we crammed everything in the car in the freezing rain and got the kids in the backseat where they could sit all-be-it VERY close. I guess when I was praying that our family become closer through this transition I needed to be more specific!

We then headed out to Lansing. We arrived there just before dinner and then after the party we headed over to Grand Rapids to Nana and Papa's house. The kids stayed at the house with the other cousins and Misa and I stayed a few miles away at Auntie Lou's house. Santa presents were going to be opened at 7:00 a.m. the next morning so we were up early to head back to see that.

After that we headed back to Aunti Lou's house for Christmas Breakfast! After our tummies were full and the kids had opened their goodies from Aunti Lou and Uncle Dick we headed back to Nana and Papa's for more presents. Then all  kids then headed out with Pete for an afternoon of hockey!

We had a wonderful dinner that night together followed up by Nana's homemade Michigan blueberry pie! We went back to Auntie Lou's early that night so I could do some laundry and then go to bed early. I feel asleep while waiting for my clothes to dry and sweet Auntie Lou folded all the clothes for me. The next day everyone had Christmas money to spend and Allie had $50 to build-a-bear we headed to to the mall and after an hour we left the store with Mo (a redwing hockey playing monkey).

We then shopped for about 5 hours before returning to Nana and Papa's for dinner where we discovered that papa had come down with the stomach flu, followed since by Uncle Terry, Aunt Joni, and Nana. The next day we packed up (only to discover that the girl's dirty clothes bag with a lot of their new Christmas clothes was gone. I am convinced it was put out with the trash) and then headed to Detroit to spend a couple of days with Pete, Janine, Chase, and Cole after another stop at the mall for exchanges.  We got into Detroit about 7:00 where we ordered the best pizza in the world: Hungry Howies!

Everyone piled on the couch to watch Harry Potter while I did some Laundry and packed and repacked our bags trying to make more room for our trek back in a few days. There was about 6 inches of snow when we got to Detroit so the next morning as soon as Allie woke up she headed outside to make 35 snowballs with the snowball maker Meme got her in anticipation of a snowball fight after all the teenagers woke up. After lunch, Misa, Cole, Chloe, Allie, Pete, and a good family friend Ricardo headed out for an epic snowball fight!

 After that we got ready and headed to one of the greatest places in Michigan.... Costco!

We came back to the house and the girls got to skype with Ronnie, Mary, Hope, and Uncle Craig. Then everyone but Janine and me headed out for a night-time sledding adventure.When everyone came back and had a quiet dinner at the house and then Janine being the awesome grandma that she is made cake pop's with Allie!

Uncle Terry texted late about the latest causalities of the "Stomach Virus Epidemic 2012". Several of us went to bed wondering if we were getting sick or if it was all in our heads. As usual, Pete and I were the first ones up. Belgian waffles were on the menu for breakfast while we waited for Aunt Mindy's arrival the kids planned the plot for their movie that they were going to make that afternoon. (I will share the link when it is finished.) After lunch they headed to the backyard to begin filming! After Misa's part was over,
we made a quick run to the mall and 5 below in the afternoon. (A store where everything is $5 or under).

That night we had  John (Misa's college roommate/best man), Taylor, Kinsley, Drew, and Kat over for dinner! I made Honduran spaghetti and we had a good time laughing and answering questions from "The Logo Game!"

Sunday, we got to worship with Heritage and Pete delivered a GREAT lesson on clothing ourselves for the New Year and challenged us to see and be Jesus in 2013.


We headed back to house after a lot of hugs and warms wishes from the church family there. We then had lunch (after an appetizer of Michigan-SNOW-cones made by Ricardo)
and loaded up the car and drove to Indianapolis for the night where we had our first Culver's experience for dinner.

Then we headed back to the hotel to get some swimming in before turning in for a good night's rest!  Michigan was full of laughs and memory making!

Chase, Cole, Will, Kelly, Kristen, and Ricardo were AWESOME to the kids and were patient and played with them. When we were in Detroit, Chloe got to stay until the wee hours of the morning hanging out with her COOL uncles without little sister and doing cool things like playing video games and watching movies!

We begun the last leg of our Christmas adventure on Monday morning. We had a quiet ride in the morning and hit a snow storm and hour from St. Louis. We stopped for lunch in St. Louis before heading the rest of the way home. We had some great road trip treats compliments of Nana and Pa sent all the way from Scotland!


My dad made a great homemade meal for us and we stopped and ate with them and dropped Allie off for a few days. We made it home about 10:30p.m. and we had a quiet transition into 2013.

As you can see, we had an eventful Christmas break! Lots of ups and downs. Once again, I am so thankful for my recovery and the deep anchor it has given me in the storms of life. A few days into our trip one of the Celebrate Recovery Leaders wrote this on their facebook page and it was so perfect to how I was feeling:

"Just like my recovery when things don't go the way I want them to I can give up or work harder. Even though things are crashing all around me I know my Father is going to come through. So I will work hard, and sometimes it is just hard work, to do the next right thing. Keeping in my mind that my Father will work ALL things out to THE good.

I am going to have a great day knowing I haven't lost what's most important------relationships!" Mac CR Natl. Dir. West

I couldn't help but be in awe at the "winter-wonderland" view as we drove home. Thinking about the path that has led us to where we are and the new path our lives will take in 2013.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Mema

This past Tuesday Mema passed from this life. Mema and I had a tough journey in our relationship but this last Thursday as we buried her I have never been more thankful for my recovery.  Without it, I would not have been able to let go and forgive her a few years ago and that made her passing one of no regrets for me.
There were a few things about her that I know:
1. I know she truly loved God.

2. I know she cared enough for her grand kids to save the heels of bread for when we came so that we could feed the ducks.

3. I know she loved my Pop.

4. I know she was generous with her money and helped the girls and me when their dad left a lot financially.

5. I know she loved OU.

6. I know she hated her middle name that we all loved to call her. Imogene Maudelou

As I walked past her casket at the end of the funeral, I placed a letter with her that allowed me to say my good-byes and everything I felt I need to say to her.

I am so thrilled for you mema that you have found true peace. Give a cuddle to Pop and Aunt Andrea for me.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Thanksgiving 2012

This year we had a GREAT Thanksgiving despite the fact that Misa had to attend a school for work the entire week of Thanksgiving. The girls and I decided to stay home and to invite any of my student workers over that did not have anywhere to go. We had 7 guests! I cooked and we ate!


Thursday night the girls and I decided to go to the movies and we saw "Life of Pi"! Chloe and I loved it but it was a little too scary for Allie.

That night we got home and drug out the tree and Christmas decorations. We put everything up except for the ornaments on the tree.

Friday, we got up and headed to Kohl's where we got the girls yearly Christmas Ornaments for free with all the coupons and discounts I had. Then we headed to Walmart to get groceries and saw that they had Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter Movies for $2.49 so we ended up with some great Black Friday deals without the chaos. Misa ended up coming back Friday afternoon and we just had a quiet day at home. We hung the ornaments, watched movies, and hung out together. Chloe's friend Alyssa came over so that they could make a movie for Chloe's book report at school. You can watch it here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJgaTJyyix8&list=UUDvholGIDUuF90Au4rPSJTA&index=1&feature=plcp


Saturday, Misa was off to work again. My sister-in-law, brother, niece, and their friend came up for the day. We ate lunch and left Uncle Matt with the kids and the football and got some shopping done! Then we came back home for OU/OSU game.

Sunday, we had a great worship at church with and later on Misa and I went and got some Christmas shopping done.

Oscar and Buster enjoyed Thanksgiving as well! Oscar got into the mac-n-cheese but Buster was a good boy and only ate what I gave him. He did have a full tummy and took a long nap!



It was nice to just be home and have a real break with not a ton of organized planning.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Patience

I know it has been a while since I have blogged. The last few months have been filled with ups and downs. We have continued with the fertility treatments with no success so far. I think the roller coaster ride of hoping for the best each month and then not being pregnant has taken its toll on my emotional state. After the time change, I felt depression that I have not felt in a long time. Then at my doctors appointment I found out I had a cyst so I have to take a break from treatments for now. This Sunday was the first time in awhile I felt like my old self and it felt good to not feel like I am walking through jello or counting the hours until I get to crawl back in bed.

Patience is something that has never come easy and to be honest I have been afraid of it! I always tell people NOT to pray for patience for me. Then I heard something last month that has really made me reevaluate my view on patience.

"Patience is long-suffering with a view of the end result."

This really has caused me to reconsider my fear and aversion to patience. As someone to tends to react emotionally and impulsively, I struggle with grudge holding, being a victim, and being comfortable in chaos. I also have realized that my lack of patience results in my anger problem. When I view everything in my life as such an extreme it is impossible to see the end results. However, since I began my recovery journey those things have been worked on by God. I think trying to find patience takes me back to the first 3 steps I have learned at Celebrate Recovery:

Realize I’m not God: I admit that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing and my life is unmanageable. (Step 1) Happy are those who know they are spiritually poor.” Matthew 5:3

 

Earnestly believe that God exists, that I matter to Him, and that He has the power to help me recover. (Step 2) “Happy are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” Mathew 5:4


Consciously choose to commit all my life and will to Christ’s care and control. (Step3) “Happy are the meek.” Matthew 5:5

I really like the "short" version of these steps:
I CAN'T
GOD CAN
I WILL LET HIM.
I try to now make amends quickly, view people as God's children and not their actions, and live one moment at a time and enjoying God's blessings instead of wondering what bad is coming next. I am learning to let go and have even been praying for patience in certain areas of my life. I am thankful for my family that has been patient with me. I am thankful for friends who are further down road on their journey that lovingly encourage me on my path. I am thankful for a God who walks beside me and carries me when I cannot put on foot in front of another.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Sports Girl!

This year has been the first year that Allie has shown interest in playing any sports. This summer at camp she really bonded with some of the high school girls over volleyball so we signed her up at the YMCA to play for 6 weeks this fall! I love YMCA sports! They practice one night a week and the games on all on Saturday! She is getting the hang of serving, calling it, and volleying it over the net.


The tournament TEAM! It was a cold day!
Also, at her school they do 4 weeks of soccer, 4 weeks of basketball, and 4 weeks of track and then they have a tournamnet for the top teams. Allie just finished up soccer this past weekend and they made it to the tournament being undefeated but they lost their first game on Saturday so we were out. There were lots of tears and this morning she asked if she could stay home. When I asked her
"Why?" she said "Mr. Radar is going to say we did our best but that we lost the tournament!" I told her she had to go.

I think playing sports has been good for Allie. As her mother's daughter, she likes things to be perfect. I think it is good for her perfectionism to have to practice.  She is looking forward to basketball at school starting in November and Chloe even signed up to play Y ball in Decemember! Looks like our Saturday's are booked for a while!